When it's no more about you

Pregnancy is one wonderful journey, alhamdulillah for this experience given. It changes me & husband in so many ways.. they say husbands will only be more caring when the wives are expecting. I have to say, i disagree completely.. but only regarding my husband of course :) He's been more than attentive since we got married, i suppose we learn from each other along the way. I mean, that's the whole point of being married right.. complementing each other. And by the last sentence, our weight now are roughly the same. Hehe.

Yes, this journey has brought about so many changes physically.. I'm just in awe of daily kicks and bumps and of course, the expanding waistline. There're so many things to think of, losing weight is the least of my worries. Like, #1000 out of 1000. This pregnancy has also taught me a lot on patience. Most of the time i could keep my composure, other times i let loose.

Especially when I've spent half a day on thinking (mostly baby preparation) and my mind just gets tired of exercising the virtue of relaxing. I know, it's not good. Believe me, I've been wishing more than once, that this baby inherits her father's level of patience. So far i see her having her mind of her own.. very much like her father :)

Being pregnant and thinking a lot also made me a susceptible victim to the drama of others. Others here refers to everyone than my husband. I tend to think and dwell on others' issues. I know, not good. 

And people don't really ask me how i'm doing, just as long as their issues are heard.

It's been going around for so long that i couldn't care less, but now that i'm expecting i really have little attention span. I would dedicate my time, and then dispense advice(s).

The problem now is that don't see my advice(s) any worthy. 

I've vented my frustration at husband, and he comforted me endless times. Today, however, I decided it's the time to stop.

Stop caring about others who don't to themselves. 

Stop getting into hot soup, even with good intention.

Because, it's not just me that i've to think about.. This baby will demand my attention day and night, and she deserves it. She is my amanah from Allah, hence all my thoughts should go to her (for now).